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simple principles of life.

2012-01-26T17:18:00.000-08:00

Life is fair to every of us. through out life, every one of us MUST go through hard time and good time. no body can run from it. some people will easily understand and accept what happens in their life. while others need 'catalyst' to make it. what ever it is, when you wake up each morning, be THANKFUL to God for all the blessing He gave to you.

Someone blessed has written these beautiful words. Try to understand the deeper meaning. They are like the ten commandments to follow in life all of the time!

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble,
but it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout
the journey.

2] So why is a Car's WINDSHIELD so large & the Rear View Mirror so
small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look
Ahead and Move on.

3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes a few minutes to burn, but it
takes years to write.

4] All things in life are temporary. If going well, enjoy it, they
will not last forever. If going wrong, don't worry, they can't last
long either.

5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamond! If you get a
Diamond, don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always
need a Base of Gold!

6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from
above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end!

7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities;
when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.

8] A blind person asked St. Anthony: "Can there be anything worse than
losing eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!"

9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and
sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has
prayed for you.

10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES, it takes away
today's PEACE.

Live simply. Love generously.
Care deeply. Speak kindly.
Leave the rest to God.

Get your BMI now!!

2012-01-19T04:52:00.000-08:00

hey guys! today I urgently asking you guys to check out your BMI. haha. why? because I'm kind of shocked about my recent BMI! =.=

before that, BMI stands for Body Mass Index. According to the National Institutes of Health (NIH), BMI "...is a reliable indicator of total body fat, which is related to the risk of disease and death." BMI measures your weight and height, and is a better way to measure your weight than a scale. A higher BMI is an indicator of increased risks of obesity related disease.

Your BMI will place you in one of the following categories:

Those with a BMI below 18.5 are considered underweight.

Those with a BMI between 18.5 and 24.9 are considered normal weight.

Those with a BMI between 25.0 and 29.9 are considered overweight

Those with a BMI of 30.0 and above are considered obese.

In addition to BMI, those who have a waist size of more than 40 inches for men, or 35 inches for women, have a higher risk for obesity-related health problems such as diabetes, high blood pressure, and heart disease.

I checked my BMI, and I was really shocked by the result! 25.7?? huh! I'm overweight!! arrgghh! one year ago I have BMI value of 23.6. what a big change!

whats yours? check out.. its for your own good. Good luck! ngeh =.=

Your score is over 25?
Well, if your belly is not too big, if you regularly exercise and you are eating healthy, you don't have much to worry about. (Me: fuuuhh... nasib baik =.=)

Score lower than 25?
Good for you, but sorry, look at your belly, your exercise pattern and your eating habits first, before you decide you are healty!

Reasons to be thankful..

2012-01-11T04:43:00.000-08:00

hey guys! today I'm going to talk about a simple, yet powerful principle of life. that is, to be THANKFUL.. yeah! I have a simple question for you, Do you want to live a rich, meaningful and abundant life? The key is to have a GRATEFUL HEART. It sounds so simple, I know. Masters and Teachers all across time and space have taught us this powerful truth. yet, it becomes challenging when we have to deal with the problems and burdens that come our way.

when we truly begin to be grateful, it can change our lives dramatically.
You don't have to believe me. Just try it. And you'll see how it can transform your life.

below are some simple reasons to be grateful. maybe some of us never thought of it, but these are the blessing of God to us, and we should rejoice every of His blessing if we really understand and realize that how many hundreds of thousands of people out there who never even heard his parents voice, nor even sang a song.

Be thankful to God, simply because..

1. YOU ARE ALIVE... Life is a gift. Mornings are gifts. Every time you wake up, stretch out those arms and say, “thank you for the gift of a brand new day!”

2. YOU CAN SEE... Oh to have the gift of sight! What a blessing! With your eyes, you can watch the magnificent world you live in. You can see your face in the mirror. there are thousands of people out there who never even know how their face look like!

3. YOU CAN HEAR... The thousands of fibers found in your ears could pick up the whisper of the leaves in the trees, the waves of the ocean, the raindrops falling on the roof, the loud thunder, the laughter of children, the ringing of the phone, and hear the words “I love you”

4. YOU CAN SPEAK... You can utter words that can encourage, inspire, teach, guide, comfort, uplift and motivate. but how many have u said the words “Thank you” to God and your parents? be grateful!

5. YOU CAN MOVE... You are joy in motion. You have the ability to dance, walk, run, hop and skip as you travel the road of life.

6. YOU CAN EAT... You can enjoy different food…the sweetness of ice cream and cakes, the crunchy veggies and mouthwatering seafood. shouldn't we thankful to the healthy food we eat and gives us energy and helps us to grow?

7. YOU CAN DRINK... You can drink and allow water and fresh juices to quench your thirst. You can drink a toast to celebrate a wedding, a romantic evening, or warm your body on cold winter nights.

8. YOU CAN SMELL... You can smell KFC, durians, and perfume. except when you have cold =.=

9. YOU CAN TOUCH... Your hands can caress and soothe a loved one. You can touch and feel the different textures- soft, rough and silky smooth. With your touch you can express your love without words.

10. YOU CAN READ... When you look at the words and letters, they are not jumbled or inverted. Having the ability to read has open your doors to knowledge and wisdom found in books, magazines, newspapers and the internet. you can read this post and later realize that you have every reasons to be grateful!

there are actually a lot more reasons why we should be grateful. But It's enough for me to conclude that, we are the best creations of God. It's true that some of us may be less than the others. But believe me, each of us have at least an advantage that many of the people out there would cry to have. Never regret to have problems in your life. SO WHAT?! everybody have problems. Instead, be THANKFUL. problems simply means you are alive. and as I say earlier, LIFE IS A GIFT!

Ghosts are really exist!

2012-01-10T05:03:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! Just now my sister talk with my mum about GHOST. my sister claimed that 'something' knocked the door while she is using the toilet. they asked me if it's me who knocked the door. it's not me. really.

Right after that, I have the idea on what to post today. ARE GHOSTS REALLY EXIST? I personally do believe in the existence of the paranormal being. For me, they are all around us.. waiting for the right time to approach us and make us feel 'something' that will make us cannot sleep for the next 2 or 3 days. don't you believe me? believe it.

the most common question about Ghost, is there any scientific prove of their existence? You've probably heard or shared of ghost stories and maybe even had paranormal experiences that defy explanation. But, was it really a ghost? Is there any evidence to prove that ghosts really exist? Scientific evidence is difficult to come by. Most people who have a paranormal experience don't have the equipment needed to record the event and paranormal experiences seldom happen on cue when the equipment is in place. This of course, leads skeptics to believe that nothing really happened. For those who have experienced the paranormal or seen a ghost, scientific proof is just icing on the cake.

the picture above is just an example of picture( I know the picture doesn't look real) that most us would see anywhere in the internet. again,lets not talk about the pictures because the question is, do 'they' really exist?

Like I have said early, I DO BELIEVE that ghosts are exist. why? let me show you some types of 'ghosts' that exist around us...

gengsterisme...

thief,burglar,snatcher,robber or whatever you'd like to call 'em

human traffickers..

children abuser...

These people are the 'real ghost' around us. believe it or not? believe it.

world's greatest geological wonder!

2012-01-07T06:54:00.000-08:00

#1 Antelope Canyon

Antelope Canyon is definitely one of the most photographed places in United States. It’s placed in the Navajo land in Arizona. There are two separate Antelope canyons. The Navajo name of the upper one is Tse’ bighanilini, which means “the place where water runs through rocks,” while the other is Hasdestwazi – “spiral rock arches.” It was formed from the rocks erosion and the flashing water, while the time just softened the edges to create one of the world’s most beautiful sites.

#2 Chocolate Hills, Philippines

Although the hills are green during the dry season the grass turns brown so they really look like a chocolate. They’re located in Philippines and there are approximately 1300 of these. Their forming is still a mystery. There are a lot of theories about it: sub-oceanic volcanic reaction, limestone weathering, while the most recent says that when an ancient volcano self-destructed it spewed huge blocks of stones around, which later turned into hills.

3# ice Towers on Mount Erebus, Antarctica

Mount Erebus is the hottest place on the breezy continent as it’s the only active volcano there. The 3794 meters summit elevation is covered with hundreds of amazing ice towers that constantly emit steam into the sky. When the steam freezes into the towers it enables their expanding and extending. They’re usually high about 20 meters. There was an opportunity to see this wonder in 1977 when an air company from New Zealand had scheduled a flight from Auckland to Antarctica without an intermediate stop. However, a crash happened in 1979 and now there’s no such a flight.

#4 Fingal’s Cave, Scotland

The breathtaking Fingal’s Cave in Scotland gives you impression that someone has built it. The perfect hexagonally jointed basalt columns were formed during many years when the hot lava was cracked into perfect hexagonal patterns in a similar way to drying mud cracking as it shrinks, and these cracks gradually extended down into the mass of lava as it cooled and shrank to form the columns, which were subsequently exposed by erosion. There are similar phenomenon in Northern Ireland and Ulva in Scotland.

5# The Wave, United States

The Wave is not as famous as some other amazing sites in United States, but it’s truly breathtaking as the rest. It is located in Arizona near the border with Utah. The 190 million old geological wonder was formed from sand dunes that turned to rock. Unfortunately, this beauty is not accessible by vehicle. You have to do a trackless three miles hike to reach it, but you won’t regret.

few interesting facts about our body!

2012-01-04T03:56:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, today I'm gonna share with you a few facts about our body that some of you might don't know. It is important for us to know about our body very well. It's like, to know is to love!
soo.. have fun! ohyeah, and please correct me if there are any mistakes in this entry. thank you! ^^

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. * I'll make an experiment :D

Only 7% of the population are lefties. * who are the 7%? raise your leg! =.=

A human brain weighs about 3lbs. * I wonder how they measure it =.=

When you sneeze, all bodily functions stop ... Even your heart. * aahhh... ahhh.. ahh... choooo!!!!! ehem, excuse me =.=

Koala and humans are the only animals with unique fingerprints. * my fingerprint must have a koala twin :P

The average person falls asleep in seven minutes. * my friend snore loudly once he close his eyes =.=

The brain is much more active at night than during the day.

Scientists say the higher your I.Q. the more you dream. * oh, I dream a lot! :P

After eating too much, your hearing is less sharp. * who care? hoho :D

exam ooo exam =.=

2012-01-03T02:38:00.000-08:00

there's a time when we are sitting for the exam and we really don't have the idea to answer the question. right? well, everybody would experience it. the difference is how are you going to 'timbak' the answer. some people might get it right, and some people make the funniest answer ever. like these people down here.. have you ever did the same thing? hahaha :D

DOTA stuff i guess =.=

in my place, it is ' sagantang law ''

I guess the teacher was way too boring. haha.

aliens are responsible? is it? =.=

don't try dis at class! :D

alzheimer test!

2012-01-02T04:22:00.000-08:00

These are the things we’re supposed to do to remove the cholesterol around our brain and try to slow up Alzheimer’s disease.It took me three times before I could finally tell this brain of mine to concentrate.

A great test, do it until you get 100%!

It takes an average of five tries to get to 100%.

Follow the directions carefully!

It’s harder than it seems, as it should be!

A good brain workout! A brain waker-upper for today! and don't forget to tell me how many times did u tried until you managed to score 100%! Good luck!

click here

every body need inspiration ^^

2012-01-01T20:59:00.000-08:00

hey guys, today I will share with you a few of inspiring words and poem. just to remind you guys, and who ever out there that life is never easy. and its unique in its own way that most of us never understand. we may fall down, feel abandoned and sick or what ever the hard time is. always remember that the choice is us to choose whether we want to get up, or to give up. have a nice day guys!

Heavy rains remind us of challenges in life.

Never ask for a lighter rain.

Just pray for a better umbrella. That is attitude.

Life is not about finding the right person,

but creating the right relationship,

it's not how we care in the beginning,

but how much we care till ending.

Often when we lose all hope and think this is the end,

God smiles from above and says,

relax dear its just a bend. Not the end.

Have Faith and have a successful life.

One of the basic differences between God and human is,

God gives, gives and forgives.

But human gets, gets, gets and forgets.

Be thankful in life!

Only two types of persons are happy in this world.

1st is Mad and 2nd is Child.

Be Mad to achieve what you desire and

be a Child to enjoy what you have achieved!

Never play with the feelings of others
because you may win the game

but the risk is that you will surely
loose the person for life time.

We may tire, grow misery,
stumble and fall.
But if we depend on the lord for strength,
we may yet soar.

It's 2012!

2012-01-01T03:19:00.000-08:00

hey! first of all, happy new year 2012! (clap! clap! clap!) yeah.. today is 1st of january, the first day of 2012. like usual, people will talk about their wish for the year. what they want to do the whole year and what they wish to have through the year. And like other people, me too have my very own hope and wish for 2012, the year of dragon. woah!

actually, I've been thinking about ' what I want to do in 2012? what is my resolution for 2012? ' for the last few weeks. well, you know... I have a long free time at home. so much of my leisure time spent on leisure activities and thinking about how my future will be like. honestly, 2011 has become the worst year for me. I was like driving to a destination when suddenly I realized that something is wrong about the direction. ' where am I? '. 2011 put me into such a bitter story of life which brings the worst of me. starts from my SPM result, it change my life pathway which I have planned earlier. months after that, I have to postpone my study in matriculation due to health problem. It has been 3 months since I left my studies and honestly, I miss all those stressful classes and lecturers, mountains of homework, and on top of that, I do miss all the people in college. especially Adventist Youth, BP3T10, Geng E.3.21 and other friends. Instead of sadness and challenges, 2011 still gave me a lot of reasons to smile and laugh. God blessed me with a lot of new experiences especially during my life in labuan matriculation college. He blessed me with many understanding and outstanding friends and of course, the only love of my heart, Arlynn Debbie Jenar, THANK YOU :) not forgotten, also best memories of 2011 was my trip to gunung kinabalu! He gave me every reason to keep positive despite of all the pain that I have gone through. Thank you 2011. Thank you God!

Dear God, what I wish for 2012 is to fully recover from this disease very soon, so that I can continue my study like my other friends. I wish the time will come when I can sit back in the lecture hall and listen to lessons by a boring lecture. I don't care how boring the lecturer is, I just want to study and continue reaching my dreams. I wish for 2012 God, is to stay faithful to you. to believe and to keep your commandments and promises to us, the people of hope.

so guys, that's my resolution for 2012. simple right? hehe. those wishes means everything for me. really. somehow I believe that God has planned every seconds of my life. I surrender everything to Him, as He know whats best for me ^^
I think that's all for now. again, happy new year to you guys. may 2012 brings the best of you all. God bless!

angry birds =.=

2011-12-24T05:56:00.000-08:00

hello guys! again, I took quite a distance of period after my last post =.= well, who care? do you? ndaa kannn! hehe. alright, lets see what's I'm going to talk about today?

Just now I watched an indian, or well known as hindustan movie. FIRST, I'm not a bollywood admires! I watched the movie just for fun. boring bha tguk cerita inggiris sejaa. well, the story was quite interesting. mimang best la urang bilang. but I'm not about to talk on the story line or the beautiful heroin. but there's a story told by the hero in this movie, which the story really take me into a deep thinking about LIFE and the people around US.

'' once upon a time, there's a bird flying on its way to a destination. while the bird is on its journey, suddenly the snow fall heavily( maybe because its end of the year and it's christmas! =.= ) after quite a long time of hardworking to hold on and keep going, the birds can't stand it no more. finally the bird fell to the ground. stranded and almost dying of extreme cold. while it seems like the bird is helpless and it's seems the bird's life will ends up there, suddenly a cow passed, stop near the bird and throw its 'shit' on the bird. the 'shit' warmed the birds and it escaped from death! the birds gain its strength back and it feel so happy that its smile and sing and laugh. while the bird is enjoying, suddenly there came a cat. a hungry cat... ''
can u think of what happened to the bird after that? sure you can ^^

so.. that's how the story going. boring huh? I know its kind of nonsense. well.. how come there's a bird that smile and sing and.. LAUGH?? =.= but instead of focusing on the credibility of the hero(I'm talking about the bird), there's THREE moral values and lessons that we can get from the bird story. before that, the title 'angry birds' is actually have nothing to do with the post. hehe. so the value is..

first, those people who throw 'shits' in your life not necessarily is your enemy. they might trying to save you from SHITS which you unaware of.

secondly, don't easily feel comfortable with an exhilarating situation. for a terrible disaster might coming up in seconds.

thirdly, always be THANKFUL TO GOD whenever He grace you with joy. or else He might take it back.

okee.. thats it. by the way, the movie title was.. ermm, oh God, I forget already! =.= merry christmas and happy new year everyone! ^^

facts that I will have to live with...

2011-12-11T06:17:00.000-08:00

''If I failed and I give up, do you think that I'm gonna get up? NO! But if I failed and I try again and again, I just want you to know that IT'S NOT THE END. It's matters how you gonna finish. ARE YOU GONNA FINISH STRONG?'' - Nick Vujicic

you know guys, there is sometimes in life that happens, that you don't know and you don't understand. And you keep thinking if you can get trough it. you go through the storms in life, and you don't know how long you gonna be in it.

this is what's happening in my life now. living with an unknown nerve disease and have my study postponed. well, I'm sure that most of my friends and relatives don't know about this. I chose to keep it secret because and I couldn't accept it. Why everything turned out like this? you know, It's is scaring to think when everything is going to be ok? how about my study? can I still achieve my ambition? can I still be a doctor? HOW ABOUT MY LIFE?

A friend of mine asked me, ' Gib, are you still the same Gib that I knew? the one with strong heart and never give up? are you? ' the moment I read her massage, I was like unnerved. Did I changed?

This is the reason why I choose to talk now. because I realize that there is no point in my life I can say that I wish I can that.. I wish I can do this and that.. I wish, bla.. bla.. bla. I realize that trough my life, God has blessed me with a lot of grace and joy. What I see in my life now has taught me some principle and one of it is to be THANKFUL. you know, It's is scary to know that how many people is dying of deadly disease. It is scary to know how many people is living with no hand and legs. It is scary to know how many people live with angry to their live or feel hopeless because of their situation.

I am thankful to God because I'm not one of those people who are dying of disease, war, starvation. I am thankful to God because He let me experience a situation that not much people ever have. Yes, I accept that I'm too young to understand, but this is how I will grow up. and I realize that when the time is right, God will let me do and achieve what ever I want with His guidance.

Some things are not meant to be understood, but to be accepted. cheers! ^^

moments passes by, memories stay ^^

2011-11-24T09:59:00.000-08:00

I was having quite a hard time to think about what to post next in this blog. I really lack of idea. REALLY. A few hours ago, while I was surfing my FB and it brings to a group of pictures in AY group page. I was truly fascinated to the pictures and then I stopped and think, why don't I talk about my friends, bothers and sisters in Lord? yes, It's our Adventist Youth (AY) vacation trip to kundasang and ranau on 10th to 13th of nevember 2011.

before that, Its better for me to introduce our group first. alright? so keep reading^^ Our AY group is mainly operating in SDA church, Kg Lajau, Labuan. We are actually a group of Adventist matriculation colleague students who come from all over Sabah, Sarawak, and Labuan. The purpose of the group is to praise the lord in heaven through group activities and programs. For more information, just inbox me through FB.

actually, I'm not in mood to 'talk' a lot in this post. Just want to show you all few pictures of ours during our trip to ranau. hehe ^^ enjoy!
tapuk!!

otw to poring! huhu ^^

before leaving to ranau SDA church

sumandak rungus didti! =.=

hensem2, macho2 suma nya. tapi semua belum mandi!

I that's all for now. these are some of our family member. to be truthful, I enjoy the trip so much and I love it! thanks to everyone who participated. not forgotten a thousands of hug and thanks to those who are involved in the trip management, brendon, deborah, eon, and others. thank you everyone for making this trip such a meaningful and worthy trip. I appreciate it so much! May we stay strong to praise the Lord and keep our friendship worthy. God bless us!

hello! hello! n hellooo!!

2011-11-23T05:19:00.000-08:00

woah! Im so excited actually... huhu. yeahh.. I know, I know. I haven't been posting for such a long time. almost 5 months if I'm not mistaken. ngeh. thats a real long time. really =.=
soo... by the way, I have a lot to share actually. it's mostly about what I have been through and what I have observed around me. in fact, its more into how I look at and feel about how my life is truly going now. and YES, I was stressed, and I almost lost myself. but then I read a book that brings me a phrase that 'knock my head' to 're-think' about my 'stress-point'.

the book says... '' Men are disturbed not by things that happens, but by their opinion about the things that happen '' . And I was like, ' wooo... oke.. oke.. '...... THE END.............

I took quite a long time to realize that the book was right. All this time I was stressed to think about WHY it happens to me, WHY life so unfair to me, WHY everything turn up like this,..WHY,and WHY and WHY and WHY!!!!!!!!! ehem... well, that is actually the reason why I stressed =.=

To shorten the story, coz I know you are getting bored to continue reading. I jump into a conclusion that I should not think about the thing too much. yes, attempt, attention and concentration to find the conclusion stays, let the worries go away. leave everything to God, believe that He know what's best for me.

the new part of me^^

2011-07-15T15:23:00.000-07:00

'the new part of me'.. I think this is the best title I should put on this entry. haha.. Its not because I've become someone different or what. But because I'm now living a totally different way of life as before. aha!

Its almost 1 month and 23 days since I registered to KML. Truthfully, at first, Its hard for me to adapt with the manners of life as a matrix student. with all the task and lecture hour that most of the time would 'steal' away my play and sleep hour. nevermind. dimaafkan. haha^^ Btw, I have many great friends in here and yes, I like it! and now I'm starting to enjoy life in here. not bad actually. haha.

Last three weeks, many of my fiends keep pushing me to join the Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar(JPP). But I'm sorry guys. once I said I'll not join, I mean it. I don't have any specific reason on this. I don't know. But deep in my heart I'd like to feel free from any responsibilities related to JPP or any equivalent stuff. I just want to be free. but somehow when we talk about religion responsibilities, then I can't say no to it. here we have Adventist Youth Club(AY) and I find great people in there. I've been chosen to be the club president. and this time, I can't say no again. and thanks God things are going well, at least until now. I learn't a lot from the club committee actually. and I'll keep learning from them for me to improve my worship service to God.

I have a lot more to share here. but seriously it's already 7.11 a.m.(so?? =.=) haha.. hey, today is sabbath laa.. I'm going to church today. that's all from now. God bless!

where to next?

2011-05-08T17:52:00.000-07:00

hey, It have been a long time I didn't post here. ngeh. actually I've been busy with activities, football tournament, family activities and a lot more! yeah, that is just an excuse :) uhuk..uhuk =.=

ok, where to next?? sure, I'm talking about where I'm going to continue my study next. all this time(since my SPM result) I've been looking for the best choice for me to be the best 'platform' to pursue my 'dream', I've done all the research(ouh, I act like a scientist here =.=) to find out the pro n cons of every choice I have. So, here is the decision...

I decided to enter matriculation college. and thanks God, by 23 may 2011, I'll be there, in Labuan Matriculation College. for one year, I'll build my life there. I know the risk when I take matriculation, but my instinct(of course with all the positive reason) convince me to go there. so yeah, I'm committed with my decision.

kau x rasa formspring sunyi kaa??

2011-05-04T12:26:00.001-07:00

kau x rasa formspring sunyi kaa??

Answer here

make the difference!

2011-04-13T08:24:00.000-07:00

If each grain of sand were to say :

One grain does not make a mountain,

There would be no land.

If each drop of water were to say :

One drop does not make an ocean,

There would be no sea.

If each note of music were to say :

Each note does not make a symphony,

There would be no melody.

If each word were to say :

One word does not make a library,

There would be no book.

If each brick were to say :

One brick does not make a wall,

There would be no house.

If each seed were to say :

One seed does not make a field,

There would be no harvest.

If each of us were to say :

One person does not make the difference,

There would never be love and peace on earth.

You and I do make the difference.

Begin today and make the difference.

I do, I don't... I am, but I'm not!

2011-04-13T07:51:00.000-07:00

ok, ermmm... just to fill up a new entry in my blog, so I'd like to write down what I do and what I don't... keep reading yaaww! ^^

#1 I do personally agree that I might look a bit schematic person(mgkin sebab sya nie pendiam or jarang bersuara or whatever it is..), but I actually I don't love to follow the rule. especially any school rule which I think is frivolous.

#2 I do hang out all day long with my friends, but I don't do smoking, drinking, and drugs!

#3 I do have a serious face(slalu kawan2 n 'strangers' tell me bout this), but I'm not arrogant.

#4 I am a religious-thinking person, but I'm not a fanatic one

#5 I do complaint, but I don't critics others

#6 I am a vanilla lover, I'm not a chocolate lover! (who care?? hoho)

#7 I am look like a chinese(becoz of my kulit yg cerah n mata yg sepet2), I tell you I'm not! I'm a pure kadazan^^

ermm... what else? I think that is all. hoho. so anyway, hope you guys can know me even closer.. ohya, last one,

#8 I am a blogger, but I'm not kind of 'blogger sejati' one... haha! kidding!

somehow I have to move on...

2011-04-05T07:54:00.000-07:00

23rd march 2011,

I went to my school. today is the day where we will get our SPM result. of course, I was nervous to know what my result will be. All my way from kota marudu to my school, I've been praying to God to give me strength and patience to accept what ever my result would be. and yes, I can't stop telling myself to accept what ever 'kezzutan' I will get.

Miss Zuhrin look at me deep in my eyes before she passed me my result slip. And then she said to me with a smile, ' congrats Gib...' I looked down to my slip, unnerved, I feel like the whole world around me is shaking very hard. Somehow I smiled back to her with the strength that left. without saying anything, I left.

5th april 211

It has been two weeks since I get my result. along these time, I've been trying so hard to think in a very positive way in every aspects. Oh my God, You put me into such a great challenge!!

Firstly I would like to thanks God for what He had written to me. I don't know what but I'm sure He knows whats best for me.. trima ja la suma kan^^ and sure, thanks to the people around me who keep supporting me during my hardest time. Dad, mum, siblings, friends and teachers. everybody. If not you all, I don't even know if I can stop crying myself!

I've tried to be very positive. truthfully, I've never been into such a disappointment and failure. I used to fail, but this time is the hardest-to-accept failure. I don't know. maybe this is God's way to give me a lesson that life isn't always bright. sometimes we have to fail, to experience how is it feel like to be at the bottom. right? yet, I will never give up. this failure has bring me down so deep, while I'm looking at the brighter side of this 'nightmare', I promised to myself, I'll bounce back higher!

back to march~

2011-02-28T04:49:00.000-08:00

It's the end of february and yeah, we are in march! and yep, its my birth month! hehe... that means, I'm about to reach 18th years of breathing=.=' ngee.. so anyway, I would like to talk about some interesting history of me, some story that... ?? ^^

ok.. I don't know where to start. huh! I still remember when I was in primary school(SJK(C) Khoi Ming), I was there with all my friends that comes from different religion and race. we play together, talks about how our future will be. we learnt how to accept each other and be friend with everybody. when I think back, I realize that those beautiful memories with these guys had taught me never to judge people easily and a lot more that had bring me into who I am today.

years goes by, from a boy, I grow up into a teenager before becoming a youth as I am this day. I've been so thankful to God that He had made my life into such a challenges and unpredictable one. when I reflect back few years back, where I've worked hard all the way up and achieved so many victories and pride that I admit, those was all I want at that time. and yes, I grew up with failure and mistakes too!

I run on the track for gold medal, I argue with my parents, I make a row with my siblings, run from the teacher because I don't want to attend a boring talk, I argue my teachers as well as my friends, talk about 'budak sekolah' stuff with my roommate before fall asleep, I escape the assembly just to finish my homework, I stay up late because next week is our exams, I hide myself to escape from a boring meeting and many more 'kerja' that make me smile whenever I remember back!

actually there is a lot more, but then I am toooo lazy to list down! hehe. maybe I should write a simple poem to represent all that? oke.. I try!( not now!)

so anyway, I'd like to thanks God for giving me this beautiful life. I realize that He is the reason I'm standing today. and yes, no matter how good I am, or how naughty I am, how high I can reach or how deep I fall down, He have His every reason why He put me into that. and yes, I will always keep going on!

7 Facts about me & mathematics!

2011-02-15T19:02:00.000-08:00

I don't know but this just passed trough my mind. How if I share some facts here about me and my favorite subject, yep, thats it! mathematic!

# 1st

I started to love maths when I was in year 3. that time our maths teacher, challenged our class to get all A's during the mid - year examination. so, we all worked together, doing excercise and all that needed. eventhough we didn't make it(3 out of 26 get B. I got A oke.. ^^), I found myself

addicted to maths!

#2nd

I manage to memorize the 'sifir'(from 2 to 12) when I was in year 4. that is after my Dad done so much thing forcing me to memorize it. huh!

#3rd

during primary and low secondary school, when its involving calculation, I prefer to use my mind, instead of doing the operation on a paper or using calculator(except during exam la cause I have to save time).

#4th

when I'm doing multiplication, I will speak in chinese(mandarin)(maybe many of my friends didn't realize cause I only whisper)

#5th

really loves algebrae, logarithms and any angle- related topics

#6th

I might passed and understand all the topics since primary until form 5. but there's only one topic that I can't understanf and if can, I will never do the questions during exam. Earths(last chapter, maths form5)

#7th

I often do mistake when copying the equation into answer paper(especially admaths!)

valentine day??

2011-02-13T23:09:00.000-08:00

It has a been a long time since my last pots in my blog. ngee =.='' anyway, today is valentine! yeah.. you know it. huh! the truth is, even I'm already 18, I never celebrate valentine(I mean, with a special lady). maybe I haven't found one or what ever the reason is. But I still celebrate it by greeting the people I love. my family, friends n teachers. because as far as I know, valentine is the opportunity for us to show our love to our beloved. (It's not specific to couple only!) until the people get used of celebrating valentine only with their couple.. am I right?

Enough with that. I have some feeling of disappointment when some people make use valentine to critics and curse other religion. yes, Christian. from what I read and hear, people always misunderstand(I think so. or they have other 'mission' behind) about valentine and Christian that lead them to speak or write something that honestly, irritating...

valentine day, is held in memory of Saint Valentine who have their(the Christians) own reason why they want celebrate the date, 14 february. whatever it is, people always relate valentine day with vices(I'm sorry if it's too much). yes. I can't deny about it. because those who do it(vices) is nothing less that lack of religious education. but I cannot accept it when they relate the vices that done by the people in valentine and directly point out their finger to the religion, Christian. why?simple.The doctrine of Christianity never say yes to vices. not only Christian, but every single religion

in the world never stand on a doctrine that allow vices. none.

It's true that valentine day is founded by a Christians. But valentine is never exist in the doctrine of the

religion(Christian).The words, ' valentine day' never exist in the Bible. It's a worldly tradition that make

people forget about what their religion has taught them. So now I ask you, who should be blamed,

the religion, or the wordly people who ignored their religion?

I'm sorry if my post has annoyed anybody's feeling. I'm not a pastor, I'm not a scholars who knows every single thing about religion. But I am a growing boy, a youth who believe that none of the religions that exist today do

stands for a wrong doctrine(except heresy of course). I'm a growing boy who understand that to

live in a peaceful community, every single person should learn to accept all the differences among

them. not by speaking out unjustified opinion of their own or cursing others. peace^^

wat pa cuti?

2011-01-20T20:54:00.003-08:00

tdo, mkan, men.. hoho^^

Ask me anything

pa tajuk lagu ko tuh?

2011-01-20T20:54:00.001-08:00

hero - mariah carey^^

Ask me anything

giving up? no way!

2011-01-13T07:44:00.001-08:00

my trip to mount kinabalu has really showed me one important lesson in my life. it's about how challenges and failure that comes into our life that we must never give up. no matter what, we must step forward. you see...

Life is such a unique. In our way to reach our dream, there will always failure or challenges that might slow us down. just like the pathway to kinabalu, life isn't always straight. there will be a point when we have to choose between two aisle. that is when we have to be wise enough to

choose the best for us.

failure and challenges might slow us down. put us into

disappointment that we suddenly think of giving up... this is when we have to think back, that success isn't come rolling unless we work hard for it

Life is fair. It give us two choice before we continue, YES or NO? Fair right?

dear readers, along the way, we might become tired and hurts. we might need some rest and some time to gain more strength. rest if you must. but don't you quit!

for me, whenever I think of giving up, Instead of questioning how far left I have to go, I think back how far I have go. Pray to God. Ask for His support and guide. Then only I realize that I should always say, ' YES, I WILL NOT GIVE UP!'

only then, with His will, I can pass all the challenges. and for sure, success is in my hand! oppss, our hands! ^^

kinabalu challenge... WE MADE IT!

2011-01-13T06:54:00.000-08:00

Recently(9hb to 10hb january 2011), I've joined a trip to climb the highest mountain in southeast Asia, Mount Kinabalu. Well, all this time I only hear stories from people about the beauty of mount kinabalu. Thanks God coz He gave me the chance to experience the beauty of His creation myself.

Our journey started at 'timpohon' and we take about 5 hours climbing to reach the foot of mount kinabalu. there, we stopped our journey at a place called 'gunting lagadon' which I think is named upon someone's name. 5 hours of climbing is such a tiring and challenging trip. tiredness, pain and extreme cold is really challenging me not only physically, but also mentally.

sharp at 1.30p.m, I finally reached 'gunting lagadon'. dying of tiredness and pain, I almost gave up to continue to the peak of mount kinabalu which will be at 2.oo a.m early in the morning. However, I decided to continue what I have started. coz I know, this might be my only chance to beat mount kinabalu. And I don't want to lose!

At 2.45 a.m, we started our final challenge to beat mount kinabalu. It was an extremely cold midnight and I confess that I was shivering all the way to the top! with all the strength and high spirit to reach the peak, I ignored all the pain( actually, I didn't really prepare myself physically for this trip!) and extreme coldness that seems like trying to stop me to continue on.

After all the hard work and toughness, sharp at 4.33a.m, sufi, shalman and I was the first of our team to reach to the peak. minutes after that, more and more of our friends showed up with an ear to ear smile on their face. Realizing that I have beated mount kinabalu, I called my mum. I MADE IT!!

what kind of men do you wish to marry?

2011-01-04T00:33:00.001-08:00

dear reader, here I have very, very important to post to you especially for the ladies. before you continue reading, I hope you can be as open-minded as can and try to think of the pro and contra of this post... May this post would change your way of thinking and eventually change yourlife... I didn't make this. But I found it somewhere in facebook. And I'd like to share this with you all. God bless^^

dear girls,

There are two kinds of men: Godly men, and worldly men. What kind of man do you want? I’m betting most of you said “a Godly man.” Someday, you want to marry a man who loves God with every fiber of his being because he will be an excellent husband and father. He will honor and be true only to you. Most women want a Godly man or at least think they do. Well, I think I have found a way to tell you exactly what kind of guy you will get. I don’t even have to know you! All I have to do is look at you. The kind of guy you want or will get is advertised by the clothing you wear. I know what men want. Trust me, I am a guy. I know more guys than you do and I know them better. I know what we think, what we talk about, what we want, and what we look for, and it is different for each one of us depending on our relationship with God. I’m sure you already know this, but men were created differently than you. We have different desires and priorities. Our eyes and minds react very differently to some things than yours do. It isn’t disgusting, perverted, or wrong; it is wonderful and good! It is how God made us. It’s how we handle these differences that separate a Godly man from a worldly man.

A worldly man doesn’t control himself, rather, he looks at anything that attracts his attention or gets him excited. A worldly guy has no problem when girls wear clothes that show off skin, like boxers, high or low cut shirts, low rise jeans, and “cute” little swim-suits. He’s a fan of tight-fitting shirts and pants that show off your form, he thinks they’re fine! Worldly guy watches a lot of TV and R-rated movies, isn’t really offended by sexual content or nudity and secretly dabbles in pornography. He’s a “Christian” and makes up a significant portion of your church and youth group. He’s a really nice guy and sees you mainly for your body. If you were to marry worldly guy, he’d bring lots of baggage into the relationship, have intimacy problems, entertain thoughts of other women, and possibly cheat on you.

A Godly man is in control of his drives and desires. He constantly seeks God and reads his Bible. He “walks in the Spirit” and isn’t set off by everything he sees. When immodestly-dressed girls, magazine covers, or risqué advertisements come into view, Godly guy quickly “bounces his eyes” away from the image. He’s constantly guarding his thoughts and what he allows into his mind. He hates being around girls that disrespect him and his struggles by wearing inappropriate attire. Godly guy doesn’t watch much TV and is selective about the movies he sees. He views you as a person, knows you and respects you. He has your best interests in mind and guards against inappropriate thoughts of you. If you were to marry Godly guy, he would give you the emotional attention you need, he would ignore other women and remain faithful to you no matter what.

Unfortunately, there are more worldly men than Godly men. And to make matters worse, to the untrained eye, a worldly man can look a lot like a Godly man. So what can you do to only attract a Godly man? An important way of delineating between them lies in how you dress. As mentioned before, the clothes you wear advertise what kind of guy you are looking for. If you dress immodestly, you will attract worldly guys and scare away the Godly ones. It all comes down to the kind of man you want to spend your time around and eventually marry. You cannot afford to be complacent in this area of your life! You will pay the price someday.

This issue isn’t limited strictly to you and your future relationship. The way you dress directly affects other men and women and their relationships. You don’t see the struggles, the pain, the tears and the sin that you cause, but I can promise that you would be shocked if you did! Ask any Christian young man; we’ve all seen it. It’s kept hidden but it is definitely there. By dressing immodestly, you effectually spit on the struggles of our weaker ranks, appearing to care more about toying with us than helping us. You’ll never know how many broken relationships and lifestyles of sin you’ve contributed to simply by the way you dress. You want to marry a Godly man someday, well so do many other women. Don’t just help yourself and your future, help all women and their relationships by showing discretion in your dress.

Of course, I understand the desire to look stylish, attractive, and “cute.” It’s important to fit in and get attention. Trust me, it can be done modestly! I also understand that it is easier for some girls to find stylish and well-fitting clothes than it is for others. This is an area where guys really don’t understand what you are up against. But just remember, for every sacrifice you make to honor God with your image, Godly men are making sacrifices in their lives that are just as hard, if not harder! They will and do respect you so much for choosing to be modest! A real lady is conscientious of the image she presents, and real men want a real lady. And you can forget about any guys missing out on how attractive you are because you don’t wear revealing clothing. You could wear a circus tent and we would still know; it’s a gift we have.

And so the question still remains: What kind of man do you want? Answer me with your clothes.

Devin Swecker

27 facts about me! ^^

2011-01-03T04:41:00.000-08:00

#1 my name, gibrel donjon genisius majamin,( gibrel donjon is my name. genisius is my dady's name. majamin is our family name..)... my friends call me gib

#2 kadazan(papa) + dusun(mama).. pa lh tue? kadazandusun? huhu.

#3 was born on 27th of march 1993

#4 loves my family so much... mama, papa, adam, nino^^

#5 my eyes pnah kna operate when I was in year two.. ingat lg d specialist name is Dr. kong. thnx doc! ^^ why? huhu.. find it urself!

#6 I can speak 4 languages, malay, mandarin, english and dusun fluently.. ^^

#7 kinda panas baran! well, only on certain case only.. so, jga2 lh kamu.. haha

#8 I'm not kind of guy who will shut my mouth up when I'm not satisfy with someone or something... I'll face them and say, ' sya x puas ati.. bla. bla. blaa..' haha..

#9 I hate coward... org yg ska cakap blkang2. haih. hate that kind of people. klu x puas ati ckp direct bha. no need to hide. haih

#10 I can cooperate only with people who give total commitment... if not, I rather go away!

#11 nasi ayam lover! yumm!!

#12 I love to play as a left winger(in football).. in fact, I can kick the ball using my both leg

#13 want to be a future cardiologist... specialist in heart related desease

#14 dreams to play with christiano ronaldo one day... hoho

#15 love numbers so much.. physic also!

#16 a long distance athlete... 1500m and 400m hurdle.

#17 kinda shy?? huh.. maybe

#18 afraid of snake... woah. bkin takut!

#19 love my football boots!

#20 I don't like ladies with make up on their face. huh. mcm pa ja tue....

#21 seriously, I always being honest to myself and to people.. about how I feel and what I want

#22 PEMALAS!

#23 can play guitar n keyboard... besa2 seja. huhu.

#24 can't live without music!

#25 erm... wat else arr... ohya, currently addicted to indonesian muvi. hoho.

#26 loves my friends so much.. thats for sure^^

#27 last but not least, loves blogging. hahaha^^

happy wedding day!! ^^

2010-12-27T16:37:00.000-08:00

I would like to greet Happy Wedding Day to my cousin, Priscilla mansur and her husband, Polly. Smoga berkekalan dan bahagia selalu^^ The wedding day was held yesterday(27.12.2010), at my cousins home. next to my home actually. huhu. Like usual, the 'tuan rumah' will be very busy making everything is ok. Thanks to all relatives and anggota gereja SDA who come and help us. Thanks God the ceremony succesfully done! ^^

I learnt something something yesterday, and I'd like to share with you all... think bout it^^

while I was busy distributing foods to the guest, I saw an old man, sitting on one corner of the camp while eating his meal. His both hand is holding that plate of food. There's nothing strange bout that old man except that his hand is shaking so hard to hold the plate. I guess why. maybe because he is too old and he can't really hold that food-filled plate rightly. Then something pass trough my mind, that life is such a weird. I wonder, how am I going to be when I reach the age of that old man? Am I going to be like him? Am I going to hold things half-dying cause I don't have anymore toughness? and... I realize that such an age is what we call as ' tggal mw tggu msa ja tue...' but it's a thankfulness that he can reach such an age. and yet, he have his own time to get himslef prepared. But, are we going to be lucky enough to reach such age of that old man? Or are we going to die tomorrow or sooner? because we never know when are we going to be called by Him. am I right? so now, again, a question, are we ready to die? are we ready to face Him? this is all the question that keep 'shooting' me like an M-16 right after I see that old man... never realize that my heart keep beating very, very fast!

my confession, I think that I am not ready yet to face Him. I have a lot to learn, to understand about life. I'm still a young who haven't yet understand and is trying to find his identity in this unique God creation of earth. what I know is that I am God creation with a heart that keep beating myogenically... give me you guidance God!

17 disember 2010^^

2010-12-18T20:21:00.000-08:00

Today I went to kota marudu KFC shop to join our SJK(C) Khoi Ming batch 2000-2005 class reunion. In fact, I was one of the ' AJK PELAKSANA' for our reunion. Thanks to Shirley Chin for her help in managing and 'contacting' the other friends to come. Thanks also to everybody who come, yvonne, annie, Gordon, Ronald and etc.. Thanks so much! eventhough not many of us did come( some have personal problems while others are far away from KM), I still enjoy the moments!

yvonne, shirley, xiao chui, jia ping, annie

Azreed, uswah

makan! makan! makan!

chong wen, ronald, gordon, gib

During our party, I take this opportunity to observe each of my friend and see how each of us has changed. well, some of them I didn't met for almost 6 years! What I see is that, all of us has changed a lot especially in terms of physical look. ( But I think wong xiao chui didn't changed a lot! n azreed agree with me. haha). Now I realize that friendship is such a relationship that we shoudn't have any reason to end it up. and I admit that!

Thanks to you all guys. I'm really proud to have such a great friends like you all.(sorry coz my chinese speaking is not as good as I used to be!) may our friendship last forever. God bless us!

congrats to my sister^^

2010-12-17T03:43:00.000-08:00

I would like to congrats my youngest sister, chlarice for her excellent achievement in her UPSR. 4A 1B.(sangkut subj. BI) I know She have done her best! ^^ Yesterday she got excellent award from Ketua UMNO bahagian during the M.A.C daerah Kota Marudu. I'm so proud of you dear!! I hope you will work harder as you have a longer journey to go! and of course, I will keep supporting u along the way!

sOme stories that I will never forget in SMESH^^

2010-12-12T06:00:00.000-08:00

Its 4th day since I finished my SPM. That means that I am totally became ex-smeshian. My senior(ex-smeshians) told me, 'pcya lah ko gib. nnt pas spm, ko rndu jga tue khidupan d skolah.' I laughed at them. but last night while I was laying on y bed, I came to think back what I have been trough for the past 5 years in SMESH. then I smiled. ' btul lh tw. mmg sya xkan dpt lupakn suma tu!'

1st@@... dropped off in the dorm during prepp

I did this a few times. I don't really remember. I was actually too tired that day. but thanks God, I never get 'busted' by any warden. haha.

2nd@@... escape from assembly??

I did this once.(I guess^^) reason?? want to finish my 'unfinished' addmaths homework. haha. if I didnt, then I have to answer Mr. Sham. you sure don't want to do that!

3nd@@... gabungan 2008

for me, this is the most meaningfull achievement in my athletics event. why? I don't know. maybe I worked so hard for it. Thankfully, I got 6th out of 100 something.

there's a lot actually. But I'm 'malas' to type. haha. maybe I'll make a short list in my next post. one thing for sure, I'll never forget all these!!

dO yOu haTe soMeone?

2010-04-08T20:06:00.000-07:00

A Nice story with a good moral... please go through^^

A kindergarten teacher has decided to let her class play a game.The teacher told each child in the class to bring along a plastic bag containing a few potatoes.Each potato will be given a name of a person that the child hates,So the number of potatoes that a child will put in his/her plastic bag will depend on the number of people he/she hates.So when the day came, every child brought some potatoes with the name of the people he/she hated. Some had 2 potatoes; some 3 while some up to 5 potatoes. The teacher then told the children to carry with them the potatoes in the plastic bag wherever they go (even to the toilet!!) for 1 week.Days after days passed by, and the children started to complain due to the unpleasant smell let out by the rotten potatoes. Besides, those having 5 potatoes also had to carry heavier bags. After 1 week, the children were relieved because the game had finally ended....The teacher asked: "How did you feel while carrying the potatoes with you for 1 week?". The children let out their frustrations and started complaining of the trouble that they had to go through having to carry the heavy and smelly potatoes wherever they go.Then the teacher told them the hidden meaning behind the game. The teacher said: "This is exactly the situation when you carry your hatred for somebody inside your heart. The stench of hatred will contaminate your heart and you will carry it with you wherever you go. If you cannot tolerate the smell of rotten potatoes for just 1 week, can you imagine what is it like to have the stench of hatred in your heart for your lifetime???"

so, the moral of the story is throw away any hatred for anyone from your heart so that you will not carry sins for a lifetime. Forgiving others is the best attitude to take!True love is not loving a perfect person but loving an imperfect person perfectly!!

pOsitive tHough

2010-03-18T17:59:00.000-07:00

1. When Snake is alive, Snake eats Ants.When Snake is dead, Ants eat Snake.Time can turn at any time. Don't neglect anyone in your life........ ...

2. Never make the same mistake twice,There are so many new ones,Try a different one each day.

3. A good way to change someone's attitude is to change our own.Because, the same sun melts butter, also hardens clay!Life is as we think, so think beautifully.

4. Life is just like a sea, we are moving without end.Nothing stays with us,what remain is just the memories of some people who touched us as Waves.

5. Whenever you want to know how rich you are?Never count your currency, just try to Drop a Tear and count how many hands reach out to WIPE that- that is true richness.

6. Heart tells the eyes see less, because you see and I suffer lot.Eyes replied, feel less because you feel and I cry a lot.

7. Never change your originality for the sake of others,because no one can play your role better than you.So be yourself, because whatever you are, YOU are the best.

8. Baby mosquito came back after 1st time flying.
His dad asked him "How do you feel?"
He replied "It was wonderful, Everyone was clapping for me!"
Now thats what I call Positive Attitude^^

strive for a better tomorrow...

2010-03-18T04:51:00.000-07:00

w3ll... I have to admit that all the things that happened in the last 2 weeks of school time has really make me down. Well, its not a big problem actually.. haha.. it is just because we cannot represent the school for bahas HKSB n SBP Archery Competition.. sekolah tiada duit kunun.. arrgghh!! At first I was really disappointed.. really.. really.. really disappointed! But as the time goes by, I slowly realize that God must have planned something for me... I don't know... But I really sure that there is something why all this happens... at once! well... things happen for reason right??
forget about the HKSBP and all the things... week after that, the SPM result came out... 16 people straight A's.. wow! congrats for them.. but 1 thing for sure, the school will keep pushing us to beat that result.. and I know we have to! anyway. I am sure that all the Renaissance(its our batch name) will work hard for that.. including me.. and one thing to hold, 'no one is left behind!'... few months left to go...

eArly sTory of 2010 ^^

2010-02-19T07:03:00.000-08:00

today is 19th of february as well as the 50th days of 2010(I guess...) and its about 30 more days to enter the second quarters of the year! Hmm... in the pass 50 days, I've been through so many challenges and obstacles that mostly about how to make the best decision for myself. And it is a hard task especially if it involve others feeling!! well, as a human being, I can't manage to make a decision that can make everyone happy.. right?? from the top of my heart, I'm really sorry friends!

hmm... lets talk about my involvements and achievements in this early year...hehe! ermm, recently, me and 31 other athletes have represented SMESH for the MSSD cross-country competition. Individually, I was in 12th out of 70 athletes. sedikit kecewa kunun coz I failed to represent KK for MSS sabah...argghh!! but its ok. coz we are the overall champion for the tounament!! you know what, this is our second consecutive year of winning this tittle and I'm very proud to be part of both winning!! next, I won(I mean, we won!!) the ' pertandingan kawad kaki formasi sempena sambutan jubli perak SMESH' which was participated by 6 schools around KK and we got RM 500! during the jubli perak, I was asked to be the DJ for radio SMESH...huh! I never did this before but it's ok to try a new things.. hehe! It was great and tiring, of coz! I have to be at the radio station at all time and 'layan' the song request which was 'b'timbun-timbun-tmbun'!! but thanks God coz I've done my job well (got pujian from ayahanda! hehe..)and thanks to jeaner for helping me a lot. she's a good partner to cooprate with. ermm... apa lagi arr.. ohya, related to prefect organisaton, based on teacher's vote, I have been appointed to be the timbalan ketua pelajar 1 with azzan as the ketua pelajar and erynn as timbalan ketua pelajar 2. hopefully we can work together to make our school a better place to live in. lastly, before we went back for holiday, my friend informed me about the SBP NATIONAL JAPANESE LANGUAGE EXAMINATION marks which we took last year. thanks God, I scored A and is the 2nd highest mark among us(differ only 1 mark with fity!).. I hope the same good news from JLPT!

ermm.. I think I've writtten everything.tomorrow I'm going back to school.. arrgghh!! homework blum siap! hehe.. anyway, let me continue my journey with guidance from God.

respond to 'FRIEND' - GYVEAR

2010-01-16T17:49:00.000-08:00

we always said,

TRUE friend is like a STAR

we DON'T always see them, but they are always THERE...

to have a friendship, we dont need to be able to SPEAK their language nor have the ability to COMMUNICATE or even the COURAGE to start the conversation...

now read this..

we may find FRIENDS anywhere at anytime...

we can have fun with them...

we can share our feelings with them...

they always be there for us...

they always say 'hello' to us...

they always care about us...

how about TRUE FRIENDS?

is there a TRUE FRIENDS when friends may come and go?

true friends are those who would hold us when friends are not...

they keep believe us when people are not...

and the most important is,

they NEVER make us down when others do...

JLPT LEVEL 4

2009-12-07T21:38:00.000-08:00

Recently, me and my 20 other friends have taken the JLPT LEVEL 4 examination which was held in UMS. JLPT stands for JAPANESE LANGUAGE PROFFECIENCY TEST which organized by the japanese foundation under the japanese goverment. 1 week before the exam, we went back to the hostel to attend an intensive class as a preparation for the exam. It was a hard week for me to catch up all the lessons. Well, I dont really good in this language.. huhu! nevertheless, I still have a strong desire to pass this exam and I dont want to put any excuse to not working hard!!

With all the guide and support from sensei Norizan, I forced myself to sit for the exam on 6th disember. Truthfully, I was really nervous along the way to UMS.. huhu! Thanks God, we succesfully finished the exam sharp at 5.50pm. I know that I've been working very hard for this exam and with God bless, I can hold a certification from the japanese goverment.

A special thanks to sensei Norizan for all her support and guidance not only for this exam, but all her guidance starting when I was form 1 untill now... Arigatogozaimasu!

rEcAll bAck 2009...

2009-11-24T22:43:00.000-08:00

recalling 2009...

downloading....

initializing...

ready to open...

2009, has bring me lots of memories... sweet, happiness,sadness... but I mentioned about the experiences I have gone through the year. When I remember back the whole story of 2009, now I can totally accept that life is totally a journey of learning. We learn from what we have done wrong as well as what others have done wrong. I learnt to accept loosing and to rise back from it. I learnt to manage my time wisely so that I can finish all my assigments on time. I learnt to give my full comitments in any field I am involved to. I learnt to make decisions wisely. In fact, the experiences is to much for me to write on!!

On top of all those experiences, I have learnt another values of friendship. The whole years, I realize I've been facing many TRAGIC TRAGEDY that occured between me and my friends. Should I mention their name?? hehe.. we 'gaduh2', get 'marah2' to each other. Well, its all about misunderstanding and egois.. huhu! Days after, we sit together, do discussion and find out the solution. Then we shake hand and smile to each other. All this had taught me that nothing is unsolveable as long as we have the desire to solve it. And we proved it!

I have many more to write on.. but maybe next time... I think its enough for me to say that 2009 is a great year for me... well, its about a month and a half before 2010

SMESH Hari Raya celebrations!!

2009-10-08T23:47:00.000-07:00

Last 3rd october, the SMESHian have celebrated the Hari Raya Aidilfitri celebration which was succesfully held in Dewan Seri Kinabalu. The ceremony was attended by principal, teachers, teachers family members, VIP(I dont really take notice of the VIP actually...) and of course, all the community member of the great SMESH!!

The most interesting parts(I guess...) was the parts where representative from each 'house' presented a hari raya song with their mentor(this was using minus-one.. in other words, karaoke...)... However, the most valueable moment for me is when I spent my time with all my friends, having lunch with them(The menu was so delicious!!)... Ohya, every students also received duit raya from the school administration and PIBG(big claps to them!!) And a big thanks to Mr. Adhan a.k.a Ahang for generously borrowed his baju melayu.. thnx Ahang!!

hopefully the school administration will manage many more programme in the future as it is very important to strengthen the bone of love among the school communities... Thanks to all and may God bless all of you!!

what's inside my mind right now...

2009-09-24T07:04:00.000-07:00

Its has been a veeeryy long time since my last post in this blog... well, my common excuse is... I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE ON!! .. But after long time of 'silence', I finally come out with something to write down... Am I really ready?? huhu... actually this questions turns to me myself... along this holiday, there was a lot of thing happens on me that make me wonder, am I really ready for my future life??

All this time, I was trying to help people to face their challenges... I give them motivations and inspirations trying to tell them that everything happens for reason... But that night, I was thinking about myself... everything! God, family, friends, my study, coming exams, my future life... but as I give motivations to my friends, am I myself headed in the right direction?? am I doing what I am supposed to do??

For now, I dont have the answer myself... I know that I want to do my best and get my best achievements in in my last two years in secondary school... not only in study, but also in other fields.. but am I headed in the right direction? that's the question now...

Renung-renungkan lah!!

2009-08-14T06:24:00.000-07:00

I promised for not to Waste food & Water - after seeing this Must See & Read Last Photo.
This not comes to you as a surprise,
But it's real we have them living around us and in our neighborhood today, we can change it with prayers, and always lending a helping hand to those in need.
Don't keep this email to your self, forward it to your friends, so our friends and all people will thank God for food and water that they already have.

This is one more reason why we have to thankGod for the food that we can have easily.
But in the otherhand....ironicly, we still waste the food that we buy
I feel very GRATEFUL for what I have today....... We are so blessed for the wonderful works of God's hand in our life today, just think of this..............

'I felt very fortunate to live in this part of the world. I promise I will never waste my food no matter how bad it can taste and how full I may be. I promise not to waste water. I pray that this little boy be alleviated from his suffering.

I pray that we will be more sensitive towards the suffering in the world around us and not be blinded by our own selfish nature and interests. I hope this picture will always serve as a reminder to us about how fortunate we are and that we must never ever take things for granted.

Think & look at this...when you complain about your food and the food we waste daily...' MAY ALL HUMAN BEINGS BE FREE FROM SUFFERING!!!!

^^tO all my friends!^^

2009-08-01T06:49:00.001-07:00

I love you not only for what
you are, but for what I am
when I am with you.

I love you not only for what
you have made of yourself,
but for what you are making
of me.

I love you because you have
done more than any creed
could have done to make me
good, and more than any
fate could have done to make
me happy.

You have done it without a
touch, without a word,
without a sign.

You have done it by being yourself.
Perhaps that is what being a friend means,
after all.

I give this to all my friends... I love u all guys! I'm sorry for all the bad that I've done.. without u all, I'm nothing... last but not least, HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!!

H1N1....

2009-08-01T05:51:00.000-07:00

huh! baca topik ja dah seram... hehe! actually, baru2 nie school kmi kna kuarantin... faham lah kna sebab apa.. ermm, x tau pa mau crita pasal topik nie.. sebab masa sepanjang mggu kuarantin tue memang borink sangat2!!!

bermula lah al - kisah... time khamis tue ramai sgt plajar kna hantar p hospital... dengar2, dekat 3 trip bas sekolah(bas 40 penumpang!!)... constant variable nya, suma sebab DEMAM! BLA.. BLA.. BLA.. akhirnya seramai 23 org kna sah H1N1... conclusion nya, SM SAINS SABAH DITUTUP SELAMA 7 HARI!

bermula lah minggu kuarantin... mau tau jadual harian sya?? x payah lah kan.. bikin malu ja! hihi... ermm... x payah lah!!
klu tgk, cam teda2 ja nie mggu kuarantin tue... yg positif tue siap men basketball lagi.. bukan nya terlantar mcm pa yg sya bayangkan slama nie...
ohya... yang nie lagi kes pelik... dalam kesibukan warga SMESH melawan H1N1, ada pla yang cacar... hmm!! (x payah lah gtau sepa arr...)

akhir cerita, syukur lah... 31 julai 2009, akhirnya SM SAINS SABAH diisytiharkan BEBAS DARIPADA CENGKAMAN INFLUENZA A H1N1!!!( semua org girang time tue... mcm pa ja.. hihi!).. syukur juga... sya terselamat daripada virus nie... thnx God!

some pics...@@@

2009-06-09T09:40:00.000-07:00

I got some pics here.. nie semua time HKSBP ari tue.. anyway, this is my very first time participating the HKSBP.. HUHU!

nielah pasukan bahas bm SMESH... from left, azzan ( YAB PERDANA MENTERI), adzmin (YB MENTERI KE 3), gibrel (YB TIMBALAN PERDANA MENTERI) n lastly our princess, jachinta.. dia ne gipang sket.. ada dua jawatan, if adzmin in, dia jadi TIMBALAN PERDANA MENTERI tp klu sya yg masuk dia jadi MENTERI KE 3.. isk3.. huhu!

gambar ngan ckgu dzul n ckgu rusila...

nie time d PICC... huhu!

haa... nie time mau p KL.. sempat lg ne bha gambar d bus stop.. huhu!

lastly, nielah muka2 f4 yg p HKSBP 2009... huhu!

apapun, sya tetap bersyukur pada Tuhan sebab atas berkat dan bimbingan, salah satu impian sya selama nie akhirnya berjaya sya capai...iaitu jadi ahli bahas smesh n wakil smesh ke hksbp.. walaupun tahun ne sya tidak dapat perform dengan baik, I'll work harder for next year... for now, mission completed!!

New semester, New Hopes... ^^^

2009-06-05T00:05:00.000-07:00

2009 bermula dengan perjuangan dalam bidang sukan olahraga dan memanah... walaupun sedikit kecewa dengan olaharaga. tapi akhirnya terubat juga bila saya berjaya mendapat tempat ke-4 keseluruhan dalam kejohanan memanah mss sabah sekaligus memastikan tiket untuk saya mewakili sabah dalam kejohanan memanah MSSM peringkat kebangsaan di Labuan. Tapi ternyata ujian tetap datang bila saat2 terakhir saya terpaksa memilih antara dua perkara nie, antara Kejohanan Memanah MSSM kebangsaan ataupun Hari Kecemerlangan SBP peringkat Kebangsaan ( bahas BM )... At first, saya rasa dunia ne sungguh tidak adil..apa tidaknya, saya berusaha bersungguh-sungguh untuk mendapatkan semua tue tapi akhirnya sya terpaksa akur apabila hanya boleh memilih antara dua... apapun, atas pertimbangan yang wajar, saya tetapkan untuk pergi ke HKSBP.

So, jika awal semester pertama sya bermula dengan perjuangan dalam bidang sukan(olahraga dan memanah), pertengahan saya berjuang dalam bidang unit beruniform (kawad kaki) ... untuk melengkapkan bidang Ko-kum, saya akhiri semester pertama ne dengan kelab dan persatuan (bahas bm)... sekurang-kurangnya, sya dah mulakan langkah pertama saya untuk mencapai membina perwatakan saya dan seterusnya mencapai yang terbaik dalam tempoh dua tahun terakhir d primary skull...

anyway, semester kedua saya akan mula lagi dengan satu perjuangan dan satu harapan yang baru... baru2 ne performance sya dalam exam sangat2 teruk.. so, I'll work very hard to get back in rank.. hopefully, I'll ends up 2nd semester with great results!

ThE hEart nEver liEs... ^^^

2009-04-10T03:34:00.000-07:00

Some People Laugh

Some People Cry

Some People Live

Some People Die

And Some People Run

Right into the Fire

And Some People Hide

Their Every Desire

But We Are The Lovers If You Don’t Believe Me

Then Just Look Into My Eyes

Cause The Heart Never Lies

Some People Fight

Some People Fall

Others Pretend They Don’t Care At All

If You Wanna Fight

I’ll Stand Right Beside You

The Day That You Fall

I’ll Be Right Behind You

To Pick Up The Pieces

If You Don’t Believe Me

Just Look Into My Eyes

Cause The Heart Never Lies

Woahhh x 2

Another Year Over

And Were Still Together

It’s Not Always Easy

But I’ll Live Forever

Yeah We Are The Lovers

I Know You Believe Me

When You Look Into My Eyes

Cause The Heart Never Lies

This is how I live my Life....

2009-03-13T06:48:00.000-07:00

ermm... sedih ja tajuk tue.. hihi! anyway, this is my first post after I went back to my school for the last one month I guess... along that time, I faced so many failure, so may problems that make me like crazy... ermm, bukan masalah ja, of course, I did experienced gladness and happines..

Firstly, about MID TERMS EXAM which I think is not bad but also not so good! so, no need to talk further... hehehe... anyway, next week I'm going to pahang for the SBP NATIONAL ARCHERY COMPETITON... hopefully, I can achieve my target for this year... top 20 overall!! last year I ends up 33rd out of 160 someting... Ohya, for the MSSS ARCHERY, I ends up at 4th place... better that last years which was 5th... and hopefully, I will represent Sabah for the MSSSM national archery at labuan... hopefully!!! Ermm... I still have a project which was 'tertangguh'... Young scientist in the cosmos... this one comes from Poland.. But, since I was too busy with my archery, debate lagi... adoi! Nantilah after I go trough all of that!

Gyvear told me, along my journey, I'll be facing lot of failure and challenges... one things for sure is, there will always who dont satisfy with what I am doing and what I got... I really agree with him... that is what I am experiencing right now... I know its not easy for me to go trough, but I know that I have to be strong...

Back to my study... errmm, I have a little problem with Bio n chemistry... still can catch up with add maths n physics... the others, ok lah... not really a problem fo me

ermm.. thats all for now!!

@@ Introduction for 2009...

2009-01-28T06:35:00.000-08:00

huh! mmg tidak dapat d'sangkal lagi... awl2 tahun dah busy sgt.. huhu! get busy with sports... 1st week d skul dah keluar sekolah representing my school for KPM race.. then we went to kundasang. This one, mmg sengsara gila di sana. sejuk sangat sampai mau pi tandas pun kena fikir 2 kali.. huhu!

ohya, got new event for my athletics. klu dulu sya besa jarak sederhana, 800m n 1500m. this time, ckgu joe bagi keprcayaan pada sya utk ambil 110m hurdles. memang agak sukar lah utk biasakan diri ngan acara pecut ne. sebab paling last sya ambil acara pecut ne 4 tahun lepas. time tahun 6. Then I took long distance events. jujurlah, sya rasa berat badan sya mau pecut 110m ne. Maybe sebab selama nie sya jarak jauh ja kan. apapun, I'll do my best!

anyway, I'm expecting that I will get more busy not only in sports, tapi juga dalam bidang lain. apapun, sya x mau ulas dulu sebab takut tidak kesampaian. apapun, I'll take all the risk n of course, failure will never make me down!
apapun, study comes first... now I'm working so hard to get adapted with new subjects. chemist, bio, add maths n physics. awl2 tue memanglah agak sukar mau catch up. tapi lama2 dah ok dah. apapun, sya tidak anggap semua nie sebagai satu beban melainkan satu tanggungjawab yang perlu sya tunaikan dengan cemerlang.

''dare to duel with your limits!''

Goodbye 2008, welcome 2009...

2008-12-30T06:17:00.000-08:00

2008... pelbagai cabaran telah di sahut, pelbagai dugaan berjaya ditempuhi dan semestinya, pelbagai kejayaan telah dicapai. sedar atau sedar, tahun 2008 bakal berakhir meninggalkan pelbagai kenangan suka duka, pahit manis kehidupan yang saya percaya setiap daripada kita telah tempuhi dalam hidup masing-masing. bagi sya, tahun ne adalah merupakan tahun paling best bagi sya. klu nak d'list kan, boring pula korang nak baca. cukup lah sekadar saya katakan bahawa tahun ne lah tahun paling hebat bagi sya. apapun, semua tue akan sya simpan dalam kenangan yang akan saya kenang semula satu masa nnt!

2009... tahun baru, cabaran baru dan dugaan baru! apapun, sya tidak anggap semua tue sebagai penghalang sebaliknya sebagai batu loncatan untuk sya mencapai azam saya pada tahun yang bakal berkunjung, 2009. sya percaya juga, korang semua ada azam masing2 yang ingin d'capai pada tahun 2009 ne, betul x? so, all the best!!

LIVE UP YOUR DREAM,LOOK OUT FOR EVERY WINDOW, DUEL IN EVERY POSSIBILITIES.. FACE THE FAILURE BECAUSE LIFE IS JOURNEY, ITS NOT A DESTINATION!

be a WINNER!

2008-12-11T04:10:00.000-08:00

The WINNER - is always the part of the answer;

The LOSER - is always part of the problem;

The WINNER - always has a program;

The LOSER - always has an excuse;

The WINNER - says ' let me do it for you..';

The LOSER - says ' thats not my job!';

The WINNER - sees an answer to every problem;

The LOSER - sees a problem to every answer;

The WINNER - sees a green near every sand trap;

The LOSER - sees a two or three sand traps near every green;

The WINNER - says , '' it may be difficult but its possible..;

The LOSER - says, '' it may be possible but its too difficult!!''.

BE A WINNER!!

see... these are two types or people that exist recently. so, which one are you?? are you the WINNER or the LOSER?

sebenarnya, kita adalah WINNER atau LOSER bukan itu yang penting... tapi adakah kita ada kesedaran dalan diri kita untuk sentiasa memperbaiki setiap kelemahan dalam diri kita supaya boleh terus maju setapak demi setapak ke hadapan untuk mencapai apa yg kita impikan.

kalau mau tau, kata2 nie sya petik daripada gambar yang papa sya belikan untuk sya. gambar ne dibingkaikan n sya sangkutkan dalam bilik sya. setiap malam sebelum tidur, sya akan renung ayat2 nie smpai sya t'lelap. apapun, ayat2 nie sedikit sebanyak memotivasikan sya untuk sentiasa maju ke hadapan n sentiasa berusaha utk memperbaiki kelemahan dri sya.

''kita tidak rugi kerna memiliki kelemahan. sebab kelemahan menyedarkan kita betapa besar kuasa dan kasih Tuhan.''

facts about ME...

2008-12-04T03:48:00.000-08:00

hmm.... rasanya tak sah klu sya tidak b'ckp pasal diri sya sendiri memandangkan sya pemilik blog ne. Mgkn dengan ini korang bleh mengenali sya dengan lebih dekat lagi, terutama kawan2 sya.

Nama sya Gibrel Donjon Genisius. Papa sya ckp, gibrel ne ialah nama salah seorang malaikat Tuhan, iaitu malaikat gibrel. Donjon pla mksdnya menara istana yang dibina pada masa dahulu. hmm, apa lah mksd nama sya?? actually, sya pun tdk berapa tahu sebab sya tdk pernah tanya papa sya knapa sya diberi nama yg sedemikian. Mgkn suatu hari nnt sya akan tahu. sama ada melalui papa sya or apa2 lah... sya ne dilahirkan pada 27 mac 1993( aries ). sya bercita-cita hendak menjadi seorang pakar sains. sya juga berminat dalam bio-engineering. mgkn suatu masa nanti sya akan ada cita2 yg tetap. seperti juga org lain, sya juga ada impian sya sendiri. klu disenaraikan, mmglah banyak. antaranya, sya mau sambung belajar di Harvard University dan mencapai bnyk kejayaan dalam kehidupan remaja sya.

sama seperti rakan2 sebaya sya, sya tidak lari drpda hobi atau minat yang sudah tertanam dalam diri sya sama ada semenjak kecil mahupun dalam tempoh sya membesar hinggalah sekarang. hobi yg paling menonjol dalam diri sya ialah bola sepak. bagi sya, tidak sah klu sorang lelaki nie x minat bola sepak. klu tidak bleh men masih bleh terima... tp klu x minat?? hihi... tak tau lah.. actually, sya mula men bola masa tahun 6. time tue ada selection untuk wakil sekolah. walaupun masih baru di sekolah tue, tp sifat ingin mencuba mendorong sya utk ikut selection tue. masa tue apa yang t'lintas dalam otak sya cuma mau cari pengalaman memandangkan sya tdk pernah men bola sebelum tue. tidak t'fikir pun akan jadi kaki bola sampai sekarang.. hihi! untuk pengetahuan, posisi sya ialah sayap kiri dan kadang2 midfielder. selain bola sepak, sya minat archery, badminton, takraw dan bola tampar.

hhmm... klu mau tau, sya nie amat2 meminati sains dan matematik di sekeliling sya. I have the curiousity and desired to find the answer. sya ska mencuba perkara2 yang blum prnah sya buat. sama ada perkara yg kecil mahupun perkara yang besar. kadang2 sya buat perkara yg kawan2 sya tdk sangka langsung sya akan buat. apapun, sya tak lah buat benda2 bodoh atau yang bleh mengundang bahaya terhadap diri sya or org lain. contoh benda yg sya tdk pernah buat, memanah or archery. dulu sya tdk tau pun apa tue memanah. bila ada selection untuk perintis di sekolah time form 1, sya pun pergi lah cuba2.. now?? setiap tahun sya pergi semenanjung untuk pertandingan peringkat kebangsaan. sebab tue lah sya tidak pernah bosan utk terus m'cuba sebab sya mahu terus mencungkil kebolehan yang t'sembunyi dalam diri sya.

yang itu part positive.. kali nie, part negative pla. sya nie mudah terpengaruh dengan persekitaran. time2 study... bla kawan2 sya b'cerita, susah mau teruskan study... mesti join juga! kadang2 time ckgu mengajar pun sya nakal juga.. tapi tidaklah teruk sangat. sya nie juga cepat sgt marah bla apa yang sya rasa amat perlu itu tidak d'turuti. terutama bila sya dah mula rimas, mula lah muka sya rasa panas.. hihi! tapi sya nie susah mau tunjukkan kemarahan sya.. dalam hal2 tertentu ja sya akan mengamuk. kadang2 sya trus berlalu ja bla dah rimas.

hmm... itu lah serba sedikit tentang diri sya. apapun, sya nie hanya lah manusia biasa. ada kelebihan dan tidak kurang juga kekurangan dalam diri sya. apa yang bleh sya buat adalah terus berusaha untuk memperbaiki kelemahan diri sya. bukan untuk menjadi sempurna, tetapi untuk menjadi Anak Tuhan, seorang anak, abang( sya nie anak sulung ), saudara dan sahabat yang sebaiknya.

Have the COURAGE to take the risk and DARE to fail!!

2008-12-02T06:17:00.000-08:00

Hidup ini bukan satu tujuan melainkan satu perjalanan... satu perjalanan yang bukan sahaja berliku, tetapi juga berbukit bukau, bergunung ganang. Kalau larian KPM, confirm kapus! hehe.. joking! sebenarnya, hidup ni tidak sesukar yang disangka, tidak juga semudah yang diimpikan. asalkan kita ada semangat dan keyakinan, cabaran gurun sahara mampu disahut, seruan puncak everest tidak mustahil disambut...

sebenarnya, semangat dan keyakinan sahaja tidak mencukupi untuk membuka luas pintu peluang yang sudah terbuka disepanjang perjalanan hidup kita. apa yang kita perlu ada selain daripada semangat dan keyakinan adalah KEBERANIAN UNTUK MENGHADAPI RISIKO dan KESANGGUPAN UNTUK MENERIMA KEGAGALAN. sya katakan begini kerana, sepanjang kita mengharungi kehidupan kita, kita tidak akan lari daripada ujian, dugaan atau rintangan yang perlu juga kita tempuhi demi untuk mencapai sesuatu kejayaan. Dalam pada itu, sesiapa yang tidak ada kedua ciri nie mungkin sukar untuk meneruskan perjalanan hidup dorang..

sya sendiri pernah mengalami keadaan macam nie. masa tue, sya betul2 mau ikut satu perkhemahan PKBM. Tapi masalahnya, dua hari selepas balik dari perkemahan akan ada ujian sains dan matematik dari SBP. Masa tue sya betul2 tidak tau mau buat camna. lepas fikir masak-masak, akhirnya sya ambil risiko untuk ikut perkhemahan tapi pada masa yang sama, sya akan buat ulangkaji sendiri semasa di kem. walaupun sya sendiri tidak yakin boleh buat, tapi kerana tekad dan keinginan, sya tetap juga ambil risiko. sepanjang perkhemahan, sya tidak lepas buat ulangkaji sebelum sya masuk tidur. masa tue, sya tanam semangat dalam diri sya bahawa sya boleh buat lebih daripada apa yang orang lain jangka. hmm.. hasilnya?? syukur lah juga sebab sya dapat A kedua dua subjek. apapun, sya tidak menyesal atas keputusan sya tue kerana sya bukan sahaja dapat ikut perkhemahan(first time bha..), tapi sya juga masih dapat A dalam ujian sya..

kalau ikutkan, banyak lagi kisah sya yang sya mau kongsikan nie. tapi cukup lah sekadar sya dapat sampaikan apa yang ingin sya kongsikan. hidup tidak bermakna tanpa keberanian untuk mencuba sesuatu yang baru, keberanian untuk menghadapi risiko dan yang paling penting, kesanggupan untuk menerima kegagalan. sekali kita gagal, bukannya bermakna kita akan gagal untuk selama-lamanya.
Ingat, perjalanan hidup kita yang berliku bukan nya untuk menjatuhkan kita berulang-ulang. tapi untuk mengajar kita bahawa tidak ada kejayaan yang datang bergolek. kita perlu berusaha dan terus berusaha untuk menjulang kemenangan. sebab itu lah kena ada keberanian dan kesanggupan. supaya ia terus menjulang semangat kita untuk terus mencuba dan cuba lagi sehinggalah kita mendapat kejayaan.

Actually, benda nie sya tidak akan tahu dan belajar tanpa pimpinan dan tunjuk ajar papa sya dan my big bro! walaupun dia bukan lah abang kandung sya, but I learnt so much from him that I appreciate him so much! thanks for eveything!

'' HANYA MEREKA YANG KENAL PERITNYA KEGAGALAN AKAN MENGHARGAI NILAI KEJAYAAN''

*** SENYUMAN itu penawar...

2008-12-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

hmm... sebelum sya mula pasal topik ne, mau tanya sket, ada kah manusia yang tidak pernah senyum?? hmm, rasa2 nya adakah arr?? actually, topik ne sya tujukan khas buat mereka yang sedang bermasalah atau sedang dalam kesedihan or apa2 lah.. terutama kepada insan yang bagi sya idea utk buat topik... THIS FOR U!

bercakap pasal senyuman, bila kita boleh senyum atau tersenyum dan apa sebab nya? kalau dalam kehidupan biasa, kita akan senyum apabila kita merasa senang hati dan gembira.. kadang-kadang kerana terlalu gembira, senyuman kita pun mengalahkan senyuman Ning Baizura.. hehe!

apapun, topik kali nie bukan pada senyum kerana gembira... yang itu dah dominan lah kan dalam diri kita. apa yang mau sya bincangkan kali nie adalah senyum apabila kita berada dalam keadaan yang tegang or tidak senang or marah or apa-apa lah yang sewaktu dengannya.

haahh?!! cmna tue senyum time marah?? macam orang gila ja.. tue lah respon yang sering sya terima bila sya cakap pasal nie. hmm.. sebenarnya, kemarahan berpunca daripada tekanan dalam diri kita... kita tidak relaks, tidak tenang.. kesannya?? kita meradang tak tentu pasal... silap2 mengamuk macam king kong.. hihi!

macam yang sya tulis awl2 tadi, kita senyum kerana kerana kita merasa senang hati, tenang... bukan lah maksud sya kita senyum dalam marah tue kerana kita senang hati dengan apa yang tidak menyenangkan hati kita, bukan.. tapi senyum bertujuan untuk menenangkan diri kita sendiri... supaya kita tidak terbuat benda yang bukan2, tidak tercakap kata2 yang tidak sepatutnya... bukan itu saja, senyuman juga mampu buat kita lebih tenang dalam membuat keputusan yang tepat dan sewajarnya! paling tidak pun, kita tidak lah marah sangat sampai meradang mengalahkan king kong mengamuk! hehe...

Kehidupan memang tidak akan pernah melepaskan kita daripada perasaan marah or tegang. semuanya nya memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi. ingat, bila saja kita tak senang hati atau marah, senyuman itulah penawarnya... klu kena kena racun, boleh minum air kelapa kan.. tapi takkan marah pun mau minum air kelapa juga?? hehe..

*** Setiap pertemuan pasti akan bertemu perpisahan...

2008-11-30T22:48:00.000-08:00

Sudah adat kehidupan, setiap pertemuan pasti akan ada perpisahan... dalam topik kali ni, sya ingin berkongsi pendapat dan pengalaman yang telah sya lalui.. and for u, jangan malu utk berkongsi pendapat or pengalaman yang mungkin korang rasa mahu kongsikan bersama ok?!!

hmm... klu mau tahu, dulu sya bersekolah di sekolah cina.. dari tadika ( 2 tahun ) sampailah tahun 5.. di sini lah sya mula belajar ABC.. belajar 123.. bukan sorang2, tapi dengan kawan2 sya. selama kami bersama, pelbagai kenangan manis mahupun pahit kami lalui. ada masa kami enjoy, ada masa study sama2.. dan sama seperti pelajar lain, kami juga tidak lari daripada melakukan kenakalan.. haha! kalau tiada dorang, tak tau lah camna sya akan melalui kehidupan sya masa tue.. mesti suram! mungkin sudah ditakdirkan, menjelang akhir tahun 2004 (masa tahun 5 ), papa sya pindahkan sya ke sekolah lain. masa tue, hanya Tuhan ja tau perasaan sya. Sya sukar untuk terima yang sya akan tinggalkan teman2 sya yang sudah 7 tahun bersama sya menempuhi kehidupan sebagai pelajar... tapi, Tuhan itu adil.. masa di sekolah baru, sya bertemu dengan ramai teman2 baru. hidup sya mula bersinar semula. dengan dorang, sya sudah dapat membuang kesedihan yang menghantui perasaan sya. selama setahun, hubungan persahabatan kami terasa macam sudah terjalin bertahun lamanya.

Namun sekali lagi, dugaan hadir menyapa sya apabila sya menerima tawaran untuk bersekolah di Sekolah Menengah Sains Sabah hasil keputusan cemerlang sya dalam UPSR. sekali lagi sya terpaksa berpisah bukan sahaja dengan teman2 sya, tetapi juga dengan keluarga sya... walaupun baru setahun kami saling mengenali, tapi ikatan persahabatan kami tue mengatasi semuanya..

Sekali lagi sya katakan, Tuhan itu adil... d SMESH, sya bertemu dengan teman2 baru yang datang daripada tempat dan latarbelakang keluarga yang berbeza... bersama dengan merekalah, sya menjalani kehidupan baru sebagai seorang pelajar sekolah menengah... bukan sahaja di sekolah yang sama, tapi juga di kediaman yang sama... tidak dapat sya nafikan, mereka lah sahabat terbaik dalam hidup sya!!

hmm.. panjang lebar sya bercerita ne.. hihi! tapi bukan cerita hidup sya yang ingin sya tonjolkan di sini... tetapi apa yang tersirat disebalik apa yang terjadi. pernah dengar tidak pepatah, patah tumbuh hilang berganti?? memang perpisahan itu amat memeritkan terutama bila berpisah dengan orang yang benar kita hargai. tapi Tuhan itu adil.. Things happen for reason right??

Dalam sesetengah hal, perpisahan mengajar kita untuk menghargai orang di sekeliling kita. keluarga kita, sahabat kita dan guru-guru kita... sentiasa ingatkan diri sendiri bahawa kehidupan tidak ada yang kekal. bunga yang kembang itu pasti akan layu dan daun pokok yang menghijau pasti akan gugur jua akhirnya. hanya dengan ini, kita akan sentiasa bersedia dan tabah untuk menerima takdir. apapun, hargailah ahli keluarga, sahabat dan siapa2 sahaja sebaik-baiknya supaya tidak menyesal suatu masa nanti.

kehidupan ini umpama sekeping kertas putih. bosankan tengok kertas putih yg tiada apa2 di atasnya? sebab itulah ada dugaan, dugaan itu macam contengan yang kita buat atas kertas tue. sekurang-kurangnya, kita boleh tersenyum bila satu masa nanti kita lihat semula contengan tersebut.

** The DECISIONS...

2008-11-30T16:42:00.000-08:00

hmm... topik ni sebenarnya dah lama sya simpan dan pegang. so, mungkin ni idea yang sesuai sebagai pembuka tirai untuk blog sya nie.. alah, saja mau kongsi pengalaman.. biar pun masih muda, tapi mungkin pangalaman yang akan sya kongsikan boleh membuka anda...

Dalam kehidupan kita sehari-hari, kita bnyk b'tembung dengan masalah-masalah yang memerlukan kita utk membuat keputusan yang terbaik... bukan sahaja utk kebaikan diri sendiri, tp juga utk tidak melukakan hati orang2 d sekeliling kita.. tak kiralah dari masalah sekecil kuman ke masalah sebesar gajah, keputusan perlu dibuat sebaik-baiknya.. hmm, hidup ni memang satu misteri... apa2 ja yg kita buat, mesti akan ada insan2 yang tak puas hati or tak suka dengan apa yg kita buat.. keadaan nie kekadang buat kita serba salah dan tak selesa... tapi begitu lah manusia, penuh dengan rasa dengki, tamak dan tidak sabar.

saya pernah mengalami keadaan seperti ni.. masa tu, sya betul2 hilang arah dan tak tau mau buat camna... oppss!! bukan hilang arah sebenarnya, sebab masih ada yang boleh sya percaya dan yakin.. apa yang sya buat masa tu ialah terus berdoa pada Tuhan.. memohon supaya sya diberikan kekuatan, ketabahan dan petunjukkan untuk menempuhi dugaan nie.. sebab sya percaya bahawa Tuhan tidak pernah menurunkan dugaan yang tidak dapat ditampung oleh anaknya... sedikit demi sedikit, sya merasa ketenangan dan kekuatan untuk menghadapi masalah yang sedang sya hadapi tue.. at last, sya akhirnya dapat buat keputusan yang menyenangkan hati semua pihak.. puji Tuhan!

sya ingat ingat papa sya cakap dengan sya, '' pilih lah yang terbaik untuk diri kamu.. semuanya bergantung pada diri kamu sendiri, bukan pada Tuhan,bukan ibubapa dan bukan guru2 kamu...kalau kamu mahu jadi yang baik, jadilah yang terbaik. kalau kamu mahu jadi buruk, jadi lah.. ingat, keputusan kamu menentukan hidup kamu...'' . Kata kata nie sya pegang sampai sekarang dan bila-bila... kerana kata2 nie lah, sya tidak lagi takut untuk membuat sebarang keputusan kerana sya tahu hanya sya yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk diri sya.

hmm... hidup nie memang tidak lari dari pilihan dan persoalan. semua itu adalah lumrah kehidupan yang tidak boleh dikikis dan dinafikan. bayangkan hidup nie jika tidak wujud persoalan@masalah.. tidak kah bosan??